Monday, March 22, 2010

My Visceral Thought

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I can’t help it.  I keep saying I won’t write this post.  It’s not worth it, I’ll appear rude, my knowledge is limited, etc.  But I’ve decided to put it out there, after a cursory read and setting the book aside in annoyance.  The Gurlesque anthology, GURLESQUE: THE NEW GRRLY, GROTESQUE, BURLESQUE POETICS, by Arielle Greenberg and Lara Glenum, despite including a number of poets I admire and some I count as friends, has sufficiently gotten under my skin today, and to be fair, without giving it more than a few hours’ read.  Perhaps I’ll regret it all and delete this rant later because, truly, I love a good number of the poems within.

What bugs though?  Well in brief, Greenberg in her introduction parallels the Gurlesque with the Riot Grrrl movement.  My memory of that movement, which I peripherally participated in by attending shows and working on a short-lived zine in the Baltimore/DC scene, “Shrill”, (& listening to avidly) made efforts to include the queer.  In fact, a large number of those bands were shout-out-loud queer and those that weren’t celebrated various permutations and manifestations of queerness, in fact, relied on it.  This inclusion, I imagine, was predicated on the multi-cultural women’s movement of yore that imagined women who weren’t sexually beholden to men had something to offer. And that’s what’s getting under my skin.  Despite similarities, in part, I don’t see the true parallel to the Gurlesque here.  Content-wise, much of the poetry within this anthology is about straight women dealing directly (and sometimes sideways) with the push-pull of being romantically/sexually-invested in men while simultaneously being under their thumb/the symbolic as well as real power of men — I know several straight women who frustratedly deal with the issues that arise out of their desire for men that go hand-in-hand with the power those same men hold over their heads.  How does one navigate that?  It’s hard, I know.  I’ve been there. But I’m also somewhere else now, and this anthology doesn’t venture into that kind of experience.  From what I can tell, I guess I don’t write the Gurlesque, nor do any other lesbians/queer women, despite Eileen Myles’ blurbage, “I like these dirty poems.”  Yeah, but where’s the *real* dirt post-not-just-in-relation-to-men, just what are those pink claws and cute guns gonna do (as conjured in another blurb), you know, once the men go to sleep.  What are these riot women going to rock then??  I guess this isn’t *that* kind of book, unless I’m missing it somehow…

This kind of reactive grotesque (from the “girls’” pens, beholden to Kristeva’s female groteseque) is why “cock” and “cunt” (cock ‘n cunt?) poems get play and other similar ‘fucking men’ pieces sell:  these poems are very much querying and pushing against or into ‘what does it mean to be with men?’ & ‘how do I navigate/subvert/get out from under this mess’ via lots of sexual allusions, metaphors, and straight up physical descriptions, mostly frustrated and grotesque, however symbolic they may be.  These kinds of poems demand reactions/attention because they’re very much about men, & female bodies in relation to men’s bodies, the mechanics and positions of that and how that plays out on the larger levels, through the lenses of women, toying with and reacting to how women are supposed to present/behave for men, etc.  Certainly not all of the poems in the Gurlesque do this, but on my first and second quick read, a good majority of them.  Perhaps, too simplistically from my perspective, is the Gurlesque simply a place for women who fuck men to work out their frustrations and deal with the accompanying power plays?  Oh, and to trying to stop/subvert the conditioning of girls that rears them to be seen as such fuck dolls?  Not that any of these efforts are wrong!  It just feels like the Gurlesque strain in this particular book is claiming to do more (a la the Riot Grrrls), and I really don’t see it.  Yet.

Well, thinking aloud here still, I suppose one could go further and say, gender (esp the hetero-binary) is everywhere and all the poems about penetration and cock sucking and being sexy-lady-fare could also apply to trans/boi/queer relations because some of us use (co-opt?) that language too.  On occasion.  But I dare say, and feel free to correct me, these are mostly if not all straight women dealing with the fallout of fucking men and/or resisting the implications of that desire in a society that positions them as the fucked, on varying levels of course/discourse.  And for that reason, the Gurleseque is not the same as Riot Grrrl (nor do the women included in the anthology “not belong to any clubs that blah blah blah”, as Greenberg claims).  Lara Glenum claims the Gurlesque is descriptive of a moment, something they observed:

‘The Gurlesque describes an emerging field of female artists who, taking a page form the historical burlesque, perform their femininity in a campy or overtly mocking way. Their work assaults the norms of acceptable female behavior by irreverently deploying gender stereotypes to subversive ends. The theoretical tangents germane to the Gurlesque that I’m exploring in my critical writing include burlesque and camp, girly kitsch, and performance of the female grotesque.”

Huh.  I suppose there aren’t many/any lesbian or female/femme-queer poets writing stuff that fits that particular bill?  What would that be even?  Do we know anything about pleasure beyond in relation to men?  Based on the rampant physicality in these poems:  Pussy on pussy?  Cunt to cunt?  Boobs buoyed by female sinew?  I’m a thigh and eye woman, hear me roar?  Okay, now I’m just fucking around and denigrating the Gurlesque, sorry.  But somehow this whole Gurlesque scene conjures the Alison Bechdel test for films that try to reach beyond the mainstream/status quo / structure:  1. It has to have at least two women in it  2. Who talk to each other  3. About something besides a man.   Achoo.  To be fair, I did spot some poems about girls doing girl things like hopscotch and one about  a granny.  And someone pointed at a literary history via Woolf briefly.  But if you’re going to conjure the Riot Grrrl movement, give me something to get fired up about!  Because I’ve been there (the hetero-”lockdown”), done that and am just not as invested in direct rupture from male-on-female-play-as-we-know it.  I live post-that investment now, so to speak.  I’m in a privileged position, and I think that’s something worth inquiring about.  Just my initial two interrogative (reductive?) cents; I’m ready to be schooled, so fire away.

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On deck – Just getting into Feminaissance, and so far, digging it.  Also, A Decade of Negative Thinking has arrived on shore.

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The Many Hot girls I am Jerking Off to

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Drunken Revelations

You know how it would be quite awkward if one of your closet friends found out you had a thing for one of their closest friends who happens to have a girl friend, well, it’s happened to me.

See, a few weeks ago, whilst out celebrating a Birthday I not only got drunk, I also managed to get myself into a situation somewhat similar to a small fight. The fight, as I mentioned before occurred between Jenny and I whilst I was arguing with the Girlfriend; they went off home and left the rest of the group to enjoy the rest of the night.

To my own peril though, I continued to drink alcohol. I thought this was a brilliant idea; it would suppress the bad memories from this incident, and increase my ability to not be so with-holding, thus meaning I could have more fun.

Sadly though, I didn’t pull. Well, I did manage to resurge an old like/feeling for a friend of mine – who by the way is utterly beautiful. But I also managed to let my guard down too much.

See, generally speaking I consider myself a good liar; well at least when I want to lie. If I don’t want to lie, and especially if I am under the influence of alcohol my ability to refuse giving out information I don’t want others to know, and to deny claims which are extremely true with my normally stern and convincingly straight face, completely diminishes. So when asked by my friend “Do you fancy Jenny?” and I unconvincingly smirked a drunken “No” back in his direction, all of his prior assumptions and thoughts had been instantly validated.

I remember we then engaged in a short conversation about her, where I also managed to disclose that I have “liked her for years”. I hoped following this conversation, considering he was very drunk, that there might be the chance he would forget about this little gem of information he had attained. Needless to say, he hasn’t.

Jenny and I following on from our little “fight” are now fine. It’s hard to speak her due to the Girlfriend, she has this horrible ability to make any situation that she is present in, extremely uncomfortable for everyone else. But despite our lack of conversation over the past week it didn’t stop her squeezing my bum on two separate occasions whilst she hugged me.

But now that my friend is aware of my liking for her, every time she is near he glares at me; or for example earlier, making comments about her in front of other friends. It makes things very awkward and certainly uncomfortable to say the least. I am relatively concerned he might say something, I have a feeling that Jenny’s Girlfriend has an inkling about my liking for Jenny; although I am not sure if she is aware of any of the goings-on between us. I really don’t want any thought she may or may not have stimulated by anything my dear ol’ friend might have to say or insinuate.

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New LGBT resource for CSU Fresno students

If some of you will remember, a couple of weeks ago we posted a blog and sent out an email to our list about some folks on campus that were trying to get a certain LGBT resource available to students at the campus library.  Thanks to some emails and some faculty on campus *ahem*Dr.KathyAdams*ahem* the word got out and some formal requests were made.  I’ll let you read this email for yourself!  Just click the link below.  Way to go everyone!  

Dear Colleagues,

 

I am very happy to let you all know that we now have the LGBT database. You can access it from the list of databases on the library’s website. Thank you all for your emails and phone calls voicing support and interest in this resource. It’s so easy to justify this type of purchase when support is so widespread.

 

I would also like to thank Patrick Newell and his staff for getting the database “hooked up” and onto the library’s web page so quickly. We are very fortunate in the library to have such a service minded IT department.

 

Please let your colleagues and students know this database is now available. Enjoy!

 

Best,

Kimberley

 

Kimberley Robles Smith

AUL for Collections

Madden Library – CSU Fresno

559-278-4578

Way to go everyone!  Thanks for sending that email or picking up a phone.  Effective and strategic communication will shape the world around us…it always has!  :-)

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Click Click Expose Gay Podcast Network - Weekly Update March 21

March greetings from your friends at The Click Click Expose Gay Podcast Network. We are a network of different podcast shows produced by Click Click Expose (Gay Entertainment Media) with contributions from our friends, supporters and content producers.

We want to welcome our newest show to the podcast network – This Show Is So Gay with Ken and Becca from Vermont. They are a news, interview, music and talk podcast show done live on WVEW 107.7 FM in Brattleboro, VT. Welcome to the network!!

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2. DJ House Music Show – This week’s music show – Funk Steps House Mix – Part 2 – from DJ Louie B.

3. Queer History Fact #103 – Controversial book “The Well of Loneliness”.

4. Passion Hits – Episode #11 – March 8 – Part 2. – Love and dedication show dedicated to the one you love.

5. Passion Hits – Episode #11 – March 8 – Part 1. – Love and dedication show dedicated to the one you love.

6. REBROADCAST – Generation Q Radio – Episode #6 – Youth podcast show for the queer generation

7. This Show Is So Gay – Episode March 17, 2010 – Author Cassidy Haley and Washington State Representative Marko Liias

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Market Goods.

If you were seen as goods

I’d buy you at the market,

see the sale price on you

and put you in my basket.

I’d take you to the tradesman

who’d say “Cor blimey, Guv,

you know, you get what you pay for

and for that you won’t get love.”

I’d have thought you were a bargain

and I wouldn’t even haggle

but if I knew what I know now

I would have for the hassle.

The tradesman could have dolled you up

with tassles bright and gay,

but if I knew what I knew now

“You’re jokin’!” I would say.

“A few quid to feel miserable?

I could just watch Schindler’s List!

A few quid for bland interior?

I think I’ll give it a miss.”

I deserve much better

and will go more upmarket now,

be more fussy with my window-shopping,

no more second rate hand-me-downs.

Go back to your first owner,

or to the bargain bin,

there’s more treasure than silver and

gold, mate,

happiness comes from within.

I’d much rather be alone

than insecure and unfulfilled.

I’d rather be alone,

than with someone of weak wills.

So next time I’ll think twice

before I make it to the till,

am I just buying crap again?

When I should save for better still.

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Gay Kansas News 3/22/2010

Kansas

  • ACTION: Kansas Equality Coalition is asking for calls to state senators supporting Senate substitute for HB 2079 before 2 p.m. Monday. State senators’ phone numbers are published here. The bill, previously SB 563, would close a loophole in judicial election campaign finance rules, helping keep Kansas’s courts nonpartisan and reducing anti-LGBT attack ads like the one we saw last week.
  • STICKY: KEC meeting to organize a northwest Kansas chapter has been rescheduled for Apr. 10.
  • STICKY: After the loss of local activist Steve Brown, KEC’s northeast Kansas chapter will reorganize at a meeting on Mar. 27.
  • The University Daily Kansan profiles Lawrence’s LGBT bar scene.
  • Hillsdale High School in San Mateo, Cal., is still preparing for a Westboro Baptist Church picket.

Nearby

  • Senators Mark Udall (D-Colo.) and, surprisingly, Tom Coburn (R-Okla.) are among cosponsors of S. Res. 409, which asks Uganda’s parliament to reject the Anti-Homosexuality Bill. The House equivalent, H. Res. 1064, is consponsored only by gay Rep. Jared Polis (D-Colo.) among the region’s congressmembers. The Senate Foreign Relations Committee and House Foreign Affairs Committee will hold hearings on each this week.
  • Seven Republican candidates for Missouri’s 7th congressional district discussed their platforms. Mike Moon and Gary Nodler opposed same-sex marriage. One Democrat, Tim Davis of Branson, has filed to run.
  • Oklahoma state senator Steve Russell promises to rewrite a bill many fear would effectively exempt Oklahoma from the Matthew Shepard Act federal hate crimes bill.
  • Public News Service reports on PROMO’s annual state legislature lobby day this week.

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