One Step Forward, Two Steps Back

I have had enough.  I drunkenly said so much I have been bottling up to her two Friday nights ago, then Saturday – somehow – she opened up to me a little more.  Even just that little bit gave her such a glow and a lightness in her step… it was beautiful.  She is beautiful.  I haven’t felt that close to her in a very long time.  It felt so good, I wanted us to be like that (and more) forever.  I know, though, that opening up is a process.  It didn’t last forever.  It didn’t last more than a week.  She closed up again.  Last night, however, she opened up a peek once more to ask questions about my support and what it means.  I tried explaining, and eventually I think she somewhat got what I mean.  She was very sexually charged yesterday (and the past few days).  More and more, however, it’s been more of a lesbian sexual charge.  It came down to last night: she started watching lesbian porn on her laptop next to me in bed, I started watching with her.  It started to get hot.  She started masturbating, and it got even hotter.  When one girl in the video started to go down on the other, I started to go down on Hailey.  For the first time ever, Hailey was super sexed up and ready for sexy fun times, and yet she stopped me.  She said no.  She wanted to have the female fantasy instead of me.  Lately, it’s been a female fantasy with me, and that’s been pretty hot.  Now, she preferred a lesbian fantasy instead of me.  I don’t know how to feel other than rejected.  Am I being too sensitive?  Should I understand that sometimes she’ll want just a lesbian fantasy, and that’s ok?  But she gets that alot when I’m not around.  Is she moving away from being bisexual to full on lesbian?  Is she still bisexual, but no longer attracted to me?  I don’t know what to feel…