Call me crazy. Okay…so K and I have only been talking for about three weeks. BUT if feels like so much longer. Probably because we spend so much time around each other. I’ve literally only spent the night away from her three times since I’ve met her…three times in three weeks. I know…I know. She always asks me to stay…and who wouldn’t want the warm sexy body of their woman of interest next to them all night? SO anyway…we kinda decided that we needed some time away from each other. Although we enjoy each other’s company, we don’t wanna get on each other’s nerves. Afterall…it’s only been THREE weeks. So tonight starts the break. I’m fine with that. It was MY idea to begin with. Here’s where I have the problem: I called her at 10:19 because I hadn’t talked to her all day. She answered. I asked her if she was busy. She said “kinda sorta”…asked me where I was, told me she would call me back and asked me if I was gonna be up. It is now 11:55 and I haven’t heard from her. NOT that I expect to hear from her all the time but what’s really bugging me is what the hell is she doing this late? How is she too busy to talk to me? Am I overthinking things? I mean…really. Even when she’s with her friends she talks to me.
I know that I have trust issues. I’ve been trying to work on that…but really…what am I supposed to think? She’s not officially my girlfriend…but we have both said that that’s what we’re aiming for. So…even if she IS with someone else can I be upset about that…since we’re not official? Because I’m pretty sure I would be hurt by it. She said she’s not a cheater…but it’s not cheating if we’re not together. Ugh. I’m driving myself insane thinking about this. And the killer part is that I’ve only known this chick for three weeks. I’m not in love or anything…I just really want her…I want her to be mine. I’m selfish. Boo hoo!
Maybe I’m just emotional because I’m currently entertaining mother nature. That’s a possibility.
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