Yes, I am secretly bisexual. I told a friend today. It couldn’t have gone any better. He was joking with me in a “gay” way and I was joking back. Like most straight guys do, anyways I said I had something to tell him, and he sad, “You’re bisexual,” and I was like, “Well yeah, how’d you know,” and he said, “Because I am too dude.” I was shocked, but he has a girlfriend. He goes to a different school, yet his girlfriend and I are friends and she knows a lot of my friends. So yeah.
Now, I’m kinda just sitting here paranoid from what could come out of this. I don’t have many friends and it’d be a shame if I lost the ones I have. My family life sucks, the above post is entirely relevent. The fact that I’m not “normal” and that being gay or bisexual is unacceptable scares me and makes me feel guilty which probably triggers the anger of no one understanding. Sometimes I wanna die from the ridicule people cause me on a regular basis and truly. I don’t even want to think what it would be like if anyone in my circle of friends found out.
Honestly though, I trust my friend. And had I not really trusted him, I wouldn’t have told him. I don’t want a relationship with a guy persay, but the urge for sexual encounters with a guy seem to remain no matter what I do. Why is it so wrong? Why is it so widely discriminated? I am gonna make another post about my feelings. And how I am, and why I am the way I am, my opinions on topics relating to the bisexual, gay, lesbian and transgendered people labeled freaks by society. Don’t get me started.
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